Foreclosure is over and I made it through the obstacles. I was guided to
some pretty supportive people from the realtor to the movers that I found
on craigslist who were amazing and not your typical pair of gruff guys.
They went above and beyond to help me and the foreclosure rep from the
real estate was so supportive as well. He said most people don't clean
out their home and they gave me a check for leaving. I had saved for 20
years 401k, never spent a dime til the awakening...and well, you all know
how the rest went.

But,I'm now in a city area in an apt, kitties are safe and little Samantha
even whom I adopted 6 months ago after Marilynn passed in the night is coming
out of her shell too. I swear she is from Egypt! And Mr. Moe, her boyfriend
kitty is just as happy and handsome and loving every day. I'm really blessed
with the kitties I've had over the years. They are such such loving beings.

I was sitting at a restaurant the other day waiting for the repo guy to show
and a bee was sitting on the silverware. What was cool was, for the first time
since I was about 4 or 5 years old, I wanted to pick that bee up again like
I did back then. It just kept walking on the little silverware holder and licking
the container, I was not afraid of it. The post trauma I think is finally leaving,
I can feel all the little tendernesses come back and the light feelings I used
to have where you feel like you can pick up the chipmunks, the squirrels, the
animals...the soul retrieval has been challenging, the crying and anger, but
after that leaves and some of my families soul stalking is stopping and separating,
it's starting to feel like my soul is just me again, finally!!

Starting to feel new again. Brightness is coming. The hardest part as a child was
being too happy and then getting in trouble for being happy was the old syndrome.
Starting to look forward to things again. Singing in my apartment and testing my
note with Somewhere Over the Rainbow. I can "feeeeel" the lower and higher notes
coming back. I never took singing lessons but I think it's time. Once I get over
that feeling someone is going to punch me if I sing or be happy it's all smooth
after that!

Love and Light Light Beings...thanks for all your joy and kindnesses!

:-)
Mary