Updated as of 10/23/09 The following is nearly obsolete, as many of you have greatly helped me work thru this road block... Thank you all infinitely for providing me with stellar support and information. it is such a priveledge to be apart of such a wonderful network...

Previously written:
I seem to cycle between spiritual bliss, egomania, paranoia and delusions, and crazy states of seemingly non realtiy.
Can you guess what state I currently am in?! This is the same problem that I keep running into on my spiritual path... any help on the matter would be greatly appreciated:

I realize that this philosophy that I have been preaching is not very different than any other attempt at large scale population control... Currently, I am making a commitment to never pass on any thing that I haven't obtained by means of my own experiential knowledge.

What does the statement "We are all one mind" mean? Sounds like it would be awfully easy to control a large group of people who identify as one mind...

Will some one please explain to me where this push for massive group-think came from? I am terribly confused. I like the idea that we are all one, I can see the truth in that, and I have even experienced it to a certain degree... But I dont understand what the goal is. I truly wish to never be deceived again. I am a naive, loving type that all too quickly accepts things and sees the psitive in situations. I just wish I knew where to safely pour forth all my energy.

Right now, I am on a quest to use all of my available resources: intuition, logic, knowledge, and experience to figure out to the best of my abilities what my truths are, and what I can do to help myself and all the inhabitants of this world.

Please,can some one explain to me what the goal is behind uniting as "one mind".

I understand that there must be a change. I am vegan, I try to check/correct my destructive thoughts, create my realities, send out love, exercise compassion. I try to become educated on situations in the external political/economic/social realm and think about how they reflect my internal workings. I try to ponder ways I can transmute myself in order to end the things that bring tears to my eyes that are going on in our world... But something doesn't feel right about joining minds with everyone. What does that even mean? I understand that we are all linked, and that my actions affect others, and that we are even connected on an energetic/psychic realm. Does it simply mean to acknowledge this connection and behave accordingly?

Perhaps it is due to my lingering in duality that I still harbor fear about being deceived. Perhaps not. I would like to be discerning and I feel a sense of urgency about making sure I think for myself. Truth be told, I dont fully know how. Currently, I am open to advice on the matter. Furthermore, does fear have a place in this coming of a new age. Can the energy of fear be put to good use to ensure that we make the best choice, or will it only end up bringing more of that which we fear. From my experience, I would say the latter... but again, I am interested in a myriad of paradigms and perceptions that we all live in. Thank you in advance for empathizing with my process.

Somewhere underneath my paranoid shell is me sending you all love, and gently laughing at myself for getting so involved in this meta-drama that were all a part of:)
P.S. I can't wait to get out of this cycle or solve it for good!
Spiritual Path