Today was a challenging day. The old issues were again brough to my attention, and I asked my guides to comment them and uplift my soul.
There are again difficulties with my mother. I noticed long ago that her negative thoughts affect my life strongly! And unfortunately she tends to have negative and critical mood very often. All members of our family felt her destructive forces. She indeed has power and energetic influence!

She often tends to think about people closest to her "Stupid, lazy creature! What is he/she doing". And she also is very money-centered, although she reads books on buddhism whole of her life. She reads about greed, desire and anger, and how to get reed of it all. But she still loves money before all, counts them, measures everything in money. My brother ran from her and even can't speak with her.

She had different negative thoughts towards me, like: "Stupid girl, she married a boy from a rural environment. She will suffer a lot!" (For your information - my rural husband is very smart, intelligent and has good profession.) "Stupid girl, I wanted her to have a lot of money, to have a luxurious life, and in that case we could be friends and go out together!" ( For your information - I am not drawn to luxury and going out, and I am rather warm, quiet and homey).
"Stupid girl, she is not like me, she is not my daughter at all!"
All these thought are very strongly energetically charged, and reach their destination - ME. Strange enough, I always feel strong emotional pain, and then have a feeling that something like a suckle stings me, pins me and poisons me. When I have that feeling, after that my mom appears in my life with her very negative moods and thoughts.
Like she wants to punish me - and punishment happens... Yes, I tried many techniques of cord cuttings and shielding. BUT! They don't work if you don't get the lesson, don't change yourself!

And this is the advice from HIgher self regarding this situation:
Yes, you recieved big amount of negativity from your mother, but you already transformed a great deal of it!
You already got reed from feelings of guilt, being ashamed, unworthy. You transformed many fears, but still some of them exist. You encounter your own fears with her every attack. NOw you have a fear of receiving, of stating and living your Truth. It will very soon settle down. You already have the remedy - the feeling that "everything will be allright. Everything is allright already, and you are loved and forgived". This statement we should get from our mothers... but your mother didn't give you that. You get it by yourself, and will never lose it anymore!
Yes, she attacked you all the time, and your life would be much better, if she had positive thoughts instead of negative. But it is your job to some out from these all with feelings of ease and smile. Don't regard it as a tragedy - and you will see that it wasn't a tragedy. The tendency to dramatize also comes from your mother.
Everytime you feel her negative attitude, turn it into positive. Instead of "Stupid girl, she did everything wrong", think very positive things that she could think... not from her shadow part.
When you will start to feel ease and joy, your relationships with her will also change magically!