Solstice energies indeed brought many changes.
My husband left just
few days before June 21, and that's quite strange - he wasn't able to
write or call us for about a week or more. It's not a coincidence that
I was completely alone and undisturbed that time.Many of us could have
experienced sudden losses and disconnections those days( I remember
that even in Karen Bishop's channeling)  My parents were trying to
invest old energies in these all, and started to creat drama and
fear(Something bad happenned to him. Or he even left you!). Old
energies are always here to resist - you probably notice that. But I
knew on my inner level that everything is allright, as well as my
husband.
In fact, my parents were greatest drama and fear creators in my life.
Previousely I gave up, after that started to fight and resist.
Recently I found third way. Just realizing that we have found peace
and understanding between each other, saying all words that are needed
for that peace. once i've done that, i started to feel that it is easy
to acheive. Sooner or later, both sides will be able to acheive light.
Peace is only real state of our mind and soul... everything beside it
must be disimissed. We often say - it must be forgiven... but going
further we percieve, that there is even nothing to forgive. Just
dismiss.
No matter, how terrible the situation feels... the next stage is
greater joy than you wanted befor that! When my life became
challenging and difficult, I started to feel, that my kids are also
unhappy in public school. They couldn't study, and I couldn't force
them ,as many parenst do. Thus i found Waldorf school. It is really
graet reward, because waldorf school is a real Beacon of Light in our
city. I am currently working on their website - that is really
inspiring!
And there are still many rewards waiting for us. We just have to
acquire more peace and understanding of everything. reality give us
many hints. Once our electricity was off for few minutes, and one of
our dear daughters screamed and cried - she was really frightened. But
we weren't! We tried to comfort her, while searching for candle or
spotlight. In a few minutes lights were on.
The same happens with grown us... Sooner or later we understand that
our tears are no more that tears of little child. Intsead of feeling
save in our arms she indulged into fears :).
But children are also very wise! My eldest children were never
frightened by our challenges. They consntantly repeated me, that being
unhappy now doesn't mean being unhappy forever. They acted wiser than
myself... as well as i acted wiser than my parenst. That's true,
believe me. Children are lighter and wiser than we are.                
                    
                                                       Starseeds and
Angels in Relationships
Relationships for Starseeds and Incarnated Angels are often the most
challenging realm of life. One of the reason is because we don't have
Ego and personal boundaries in higher realms. But here, on earth, it
is absolutely necessary. After the long series of stresses I started
to grasp that I absolutely ignored my feelings for a long time.. I
ignored what is good or what is bad for me. That created fears.
Ignored feelings turn to fears! Fear created more oppression. And
outer reality became the reflection of inner reality. But it was
nothing more than a call to awake, andbear light into my inner world.
It sounded like "Wake up! Your life is absolutely wrong! It is not
your life!!!!! Wake up!!!" The same happenned to my husband. He is
also enlightened Starssed soul, we had many inspiring momenst
together, but suddenly he started to change, grew cold towards us, and
finally get absolutely disconnected... He never abused drugs or
alcohol, but his behaviour sometimes was absolutely irrational and out
of control. He stated, that he is diving right to Hell, and had
corresponding dreams.
This brought me to conclusion, that first I should brought more light
in myself, and then my circumstances will change.I This was also the
great lesson , because I gave him all my power, and besides i never
took care on myself, never trust my feelings, and was really scared of
this world. Probably, instead of finding security and joy in my higher
self, I was trying to find it in another man. It is wrong. It is
vamprism. It is also cheating. That's why I was surrounded by vampires
and cheaters by myself.
If we are disconnected from Source in any part of our Soul, we became
vampires. It generates many mirroring situations in our lives...untill
connection is restored and we find even more joy than we sought
before!
The only thing bothering me nowdays is that I don't feel inspiration
and motivation to anything. I always ask Angels to show the way, or
even give me small hint or glimpse of understanding!