“Hello from Big Sur. Thank you for all your comments about awakening.
It is important that we share our experiences with others because our expanded consciousness manifests our thoughts and feelings almost instantly now. Therefore, if think we are having an illness or anxiety, then that is our reality. On the other hand, if we think we are having symptoms of awakening, then that is our reality. There are, of course, times when we are sick or injured. Those times come when there is some old emotions or memories that need to be purged. Therefore, we create a certain scenario in which we have to be still and center our attention on our SELF, so that we can complete this purge.
My first thought about coming into Nature was that i felt i had something to release. However, what i needed first was to get grounded. Therefore, not a lot of meditation, except i have been meditating on our walks, but a lot of walking and being still in the quiet and beauty of Nature. I posted some pictures and a short video on my Facebook to share some of what i have been seeing. I have been attracted to rivers, creeks, and ocean views, which there are many of here. I know now that i had this attraction so that Nature could teach me how to live in the Flow during the hustle and bustle of daily life.
Yesterday, i did get in connection with a deep, deep fear from my childhood that it is time to release. Again, i hope i don't offend anyone by my admission, but it is my Truth, and i vowed to only speak my truth here. Also, i know that i am not the only one who has had these experience. Perhaps i can offer them a place to talk about their experience as well. If you have been reading my newsletters or listening to my radio show, you know that i have been talking about our Space Family. I, also, shared one time, with a great response, that i had a meditation where i was taken aboard a Space Ship.
However, i know that i can have an awake experience of visiting a Space Ship, but i feel a submerged fear whenever i think of it. Well, here is my story. I was abducted as a child and when i was older. I found myself realizing that that fear was actually implanted into me by the Zeta's so that i would not tell anyone about my experience. Well, telling people was not an issue, as i couldn't even tell people about my dreams or psychic experiences. In fact, it took soooo much courage for me to first write my website and "come out" as my self, that i had to use my pen name, Suzan Caroll.
Well, thanks to all the wonderful support i have gotten from my readers, i now have the courage to talk about my abduction. There is not a lot i can say about it, as i have still to recover the details. However, my dream last night told me that my wounded child needed my attention, and i had to heal her before i could go onto the next level of my awakening. I am healing her by telling my friends what happened to her/me, so that she can release her shame and fear of discovery. In my dream last night i felt the terror of my disconnection from my sleeping physical self and my desperation to return to her. I woke up knowing that i had to talk about this in a public manner.
It was this issue, my wounded, abducted child/teen, that i knew i had to address and KNEW i had to go into Nature to get grounded enough to look at it. I will share what i remember, which isn't too much. I clearly remember being on the cold metal table with their faces looking down at me. I remember sharp things, too many sharp things. I am almost 64 years old and i have NEVER had any surgery at all. I also HATE going to the dentist. I also know exactly where my implant is, and i can feel a fear right now as i share this. The Arcturians told me this morning that the implant leaves an embedded message to never share what has happened.
There is a bit more, but this is enough for now. I was told this morning that the best way to heal my abducted child is to tell my story, just as i have about the other realities that i have shared in my books and newsletters. If anyone has been abducted, i would love to hear from you. You can be anonymous if you wish. I have only met one person who also knows she was abducted. I think talking to her has given me the courage to face this straight on. I KNOW i want to visit the Arcturians on their ship in my fully conscious mind. I also believe that disclosure of our governments interaction with the ETs is very immanent. I want to clear ALL of my fear so that i can contribute my full love and light to this planetary awakening into truth!
Blessings to you all,